sad love story.. [part 4]

Honk ~ HOnk ~
with a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"jin! Move! Move away!!" I shouted.
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll...




HONK!
"Booomm!!" that sound, so terrifying.

that's how he went away from me. that's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

after that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and sadness of losing him.. and after I spend two months like a crazy person, I took out the dolls. those were the only gifts he left me since the day we were started going out.

I remembered the day I spent with him and started to count the days..when we were in love.. T__T
"one.. two.. three.. "

that's how I began...
"four hundred and eighty four.. four hundred and eighty five.."
it all ended with 485 dolls. then I started to cry again, with a doll in my arm..

I hugged it tightly. then suddenly..
"I love you ~ I love you ~ "
I dropped the doll, shocked.

"I...love...you??" I picked up the dolls and press its stomach.
"I love you ~ I love you ~ "

It can't be!! I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you ~ "
"I love you ~ "
"I love you ~ " those words came out nonstop.

I.. love you..
Why didn't I realize that.. That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach..this was the last doll, the one fell on the road. It had his blood on it.

the voice came out.. the one that I was missing so much..
"Jo.. do you know what today is?
we have been loving each other for 486 days. I couldn't say I love you.. Um.. since I was too shy..
If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you.. everyday.. till I die.. Jo, I love you.."

tears came flowing out of me. why? why?? I asked God, why do I only know about all this now? he can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...



for that reason, to me.. it became courage to live a beautiful life..

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love.. rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride..

-the end-

sad love story.. [part 3]

"wait.."
"you have something to say?"
"tell me, tell me you love me.."
"what?!"
"tell me.."
i put my pathetic self behind and clung into him. but he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say.. that I love someone so easily. if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
that was what he said. then he ran off. my legs felt numb..and I collapsed to the ground. he didn't want to say it easily. how could he.. I felt that.. maybe he is not the right guy for me..

after that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. he didn't call me, although I was waiting. he just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. that's how those dolls piled up in my room..
after a month, I got myself and went to school. but what made the pain resurface was that..

sad love story.. [part 2]

"um, Jin, I.."
"what, don't drag, just say.."
"I love you"
"...you...um, just take this doll and go home."

that's how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me a doll. then he dissapeared, like he was running away. the dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room..one by one. there were many..


then one day come. my 15th years old birthday. when I got up in the morning, I pictured a birthday party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.

but, lunch passed, dinner passed.. and soon the sky was dark.. he still didn't call... it was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. then around 2 am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke up me from my sleep. he told me to come out of the house. still, I felt joy and I ran out happily..

"Jin.."
"here, take this..."
again, he handed me a little doll.
"what's this?"
"I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.. I'm going home now, bye."

"wait, wait! do you know what today is?"
"today? huh?"

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. he turned around and walking away like nothing had happened. then I shouted...

-to be continued-

sad love story.. [part 1]

[ one of my best friends want to read this story.. so I post it to page one again. please enjoy ~ ]

i have a boyfriend who grow up with me. his name is Jin.
i always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. i found that i fell in love with him.
before that trip was over, i took a step and confessed my love for him.
and soon, we became a pair of lovers. but we love each other in different way.
i always concentrated on him only, but to him, maybe i was just another girl..


"Jin, do you want to watch a movie?" i asked.
"i can't"
"why? do you need to study at home?" i felt disappointment grabbing me.
"no.. i'm going to meet a friend.."

he always like that. he met girls in front of me like it was nothing.
the word 'love' only came out from my mouth. since i know him, i had never heard him say 'i love you' before. to us, there weren't any anniversary at all. he didn't say anything from the first day and it continued until 100 days.. 200 days..

everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll. everyday.. without fail. i don't know why.. till one day..

-to be continued-

Owl Cookies

let's make our Halloween Party extra tasty with this Owl Cookies!

Ingredients (to make about 33 cookies)
1 1/3 cups butter, at room temperature
3/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup firmly packed brown sugar
2 large egg
2 teaspoons vanilla
3 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1 teaspoon ground nutmeg
1/2 teaspoon salt
Icing (recipe follows)
Candy corn
Miniature chocolate chips

Jaane Nahin Denge

Yesterday I watched this movie in my school. It was english class, and my teacher wanted us to learn from the story.
And you know what? we were not only learn the english, but also learned about life. This movie was really good. Many of my friends (including me) was crying when the movie reach its climax.

After the class ended, I searched for all soundtracks of 3 idiots. and I really love 'Jaane Nahin Denge'. This song.. it has a deep meaning..
it is played when one of 3 idiots try to suicide.
I want to share it with you..
here it is.

jaane nahin denge tujhe
(we will not allow you to go away)

jaane tujhe denge nahin
(will not let you go)

A Puppy for Me

A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the pups and set about Nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he Felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the Eyes of a little boy.
Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies."
"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "these puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money."
The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?"
"Sure," said the farmer.